Ah, the inevitable relationship post.
I've been single for what seems like four score and seven years. I remember, I had a boyfriend way back in freshman year of high school named Braxton. Being with him was an odd experience. I don't even think that I liked him that much; I just liked the fact that I actually had a boyfriend. Now, at 20 I don't even remember what the boy looked like. I can't even remember his last name so I couldn't stalk him on social media even if I wanted to lol.
't was even, of all things, my first kiss. Now, that was absolutely terrible. He had like the struggle bus of facial hair going on so it like rubbed against my face and made my face itch...and he didn't have any lips! It was AWFUL! But, hilarious at the same time. It was nothing like I'd thought kissing someone would be. It would be YEARS until I actually had a memorable kiss. But that's a whole another blog post in itself.
Since then, I haven't had any committed, serious big girl type of relationship. I've talked to a good bit of guys, but none of my romantic endeavors have come to fruition...yet.
It takes a lot for me to start genuinely liking somebody. So, whenever I do, it's kind of a big deal and it totally takes over my heart. I guess you can say when I fall, I fall DEEP. My experiences with falling haven't ended well though...I often end up flat on my face. But, now that I think about it who actually ends up with the first person they truly fall head over heels and all that good shit for-besides, like Cory and Topanga? Sadly I don't live in some family friendly 90s sitcom. This is real life. And sometimes, shit's going to fucking hurt.
Everyone going to go through some type of heartbreak in their lives. Mine just happened kind of late in life I guess. I always felt like I was behind in dating and love experiences. And, at 20, I still feel like that sloth racing against a bunch of rampant hyenas.
(I'm trying to think rationally about the whole situation now; A couple months ago, I definitely wasn't thinking about it in this manner LOL)
But, 2016 is going to be a year of bettering myself and not worrying too much about all this love BS. So, this is going to be the year of making sure Nia is top notch and being the best Nia that she can be. And that special someone little love muffin of a man that's out there for just for little old me will come along eventually.
- Nia Simone
No comments:
Post a Comment